From my very first breath through all my growth & development, even from the moment of my conception, my path was destined to a singular destination. Every moment of my life has been spent moving my story to it’s final conclusion. I am dying….and so are you.
All that we possess and may determine, is how we fill the pages of the story we write in between our preface and final page and how we wish to spend the time we are allotted.
My wonderful niece, Caitlin, is ever an inspiration to me and it is her inspiration that led to the words I offer you today.
I decided a week or so ago to stop living in fear. I have done my research and I know my rights. I am probably THE most non-confrontational person you will meet and avoid conflict or uncomfortable situations at all costs. But I also stand by my strong moral convictions. That being said, I have chosen to no longer wear a mask in public.
I must preface this to say that the first trial run of this was actually not by choice oops!
I have since visited many large retailers, the post office, etc. and to my people-pleasing surprise have never encountered ANY confrontation. Quite the opposite in fact! I’ve seen people pull their mask down, smile, strike up pleasant conversation waiting in line 🥰 it’s been encouraging actually.
The truth is, I have been unmasked the entire time.
Close to home: My brothers entire family has contracted COVID-19 and recovered. My stepmothers mom, did not, though it must be said that she was in her 90’s and had struggled with serious health issue for the last several years to where she had to be placed in a nursing home. But, it is more the words of a friend that sums up my thoughts…
Dan was in the Marine Corps with my husband and served with him in Desert Storm, longtime friends and now a pastor. Dan and his wife Beth are currently ill having contracted COVID-19 although not once leaving their home without a mask.
What Beth has to say:
While this isn’t necessarily pleasant, it isn’t any worse than any number of ordinary illnesses like having a cold, the flu or stomach bugs that we deal with normally each year. To be honest, I’m kind of even feel relieved.
Relieved??? Yes! After these many months, she feels a sense of relief to simply get it over with, “Been there. Done that” and get on with her life.
FEAR has been by far more invasive, pervasive and prolific than the virus itself. The FEAR of it has caused more suffering than the actual virus will for the overwhelming majority of us and has lasted far longer than the illness would’ve had we contracted it. That’s something to think about…how we’ve allowed FEAR to rule our lives.
I am dying…and so are you. And, we all must die from something. Let that sink in a moment. Therefore, we must decide, each for ourselves, how we will spend the time we are allotted with what we will fill the pages of our story. Will we spend it locked away in solitary confinement, cowering in fear of something we’re likely to become exposed to anyway? Even if I am to die of it, is this how I wish to spend my last days?
I’m a woman of faith and thus determined that I would not become a hostage to fear. I am and will be maskless. I know for certain that God knows the number of my days. I will not be dying one moment prior to the day He’s chosen to call me home and not even covid can snatch my life from His hand, SO… I haven’t been very interested in entertaining FEAR.
I responded with these very words to my precious niece.
WOW that is alllll good stuff. Henry and I didn’t leave our house the first few weeks. We slowly began to emerge and even then took serious precautions. I sincerely regret not hugging my grandma, not inviting friends over, so on and so on especially before we moved away. I take full responsibility for allowing the FEAR of covid to steal so much from my relationships the past 6 months 💔
If these are my last days, I want to spend them outside in awe of the majesty of all my Father has created, enjoying the smiling faces of dear friends, feeling the warmth of my grandchildren in my arms and my mothers kiss upon my cheek.
I am dying and these may be the last days of my life but til my last breath….I am determined to live.